Hunter Beppi's home

Beppi is one of my Transplant Patient, and he is, I think, the best patient I had ever had. Physically, he got up very early post-transplantation operation; mentally, he was always positive; and he always tried to do everything right that we told him. 

The chatting with him, when he was under 1:1 special post-operation period, I was his nurse, was very interesting. He told me his hunting stories, friends stories, family stories, his belief etc. All those made me feel he has so much interesting experience that I can learn, and in some way, I feel he and his family are like my family.

That's why I didn't refuse when he invited me to visit his home after his discharge.

January 27th, Sunday, Matthew and I drove my little Black Holden Brina to Beppi's farm home in Mallala -- a country little town.

Beppi's home is so outstanding, because the gate was decorated with some horns of deer, the big garden(farm) is divided into few little farm for deer, geese, sheep, pigeons, hens, rabbits, some fruit trees, and wheat. Yeah, it does make me feel like it is my parent's home where I grew up. Everything we ate that day is almost from his farm, lamp, tomatoes, beans etc. When Beppi's children and grandchildren came, they just rushed into the field to do what they like. It is such a nature life style. I strongly agree that people, specially, mid-age people who still can do physical work but not busy in job, should go back to this kind of life to enjoy the true feeling of life.

Although we, Beppi's children and grandchildren, are the first time to meet, I felt so relaxed, which is the first time since I came to Australia. In some way, Italian family--Beppi was born in Italy, is very similar to Chinese family, which makes me feel very comfortable and happy.

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Sometimes you over-feel somebody's LOVE

Recently, I am feeling "Human Life" is meaningless--

Struggle to get up early for working, try hard to think what to cook after work, struggle to fall asleep after finishing all the washings, dreaming about works and books, and then waken up be the alarm for work.....full time working plus doing Nephrology Nursing Course by using my days off is very stressful. The course is interesting, which make my life occupied. Thinking of life behind the work and course make me really feel boring....

I am trying hard to do my course so that I can stay in this ares, hopefully get a better position. But, by that time, I will be 30 years old. Then, have a baby, bring up the baby.... by the time the baby become an adult, able to live by itself, I am close to 60, when people waiting to die or dying......

when I talk about this feeling with Matthew, he said to me, "My life is meaningful because of you!" How romantic words are they! But I didnt feel it, until I talk about this with my friend.
I think I was too tired to feel it, maybe also because Matthew always says this kind of words to me.... I have been totally soaked with his 24hrs love.

"You feel bored when your life a peaceful, and sometimes you wish something happens or changes (honestly, I dont think I want anything changes). But when your life is eventful and dramatic, you wish you can settle down somewhere nice and peaceful....", my friend says that.

I dont agree her idea of my current feeling now, because I am very happy about my current peaceful life with Matthew. I am just physically too tired, and thinking of Nature Human Life Circle. Why there is death and live.

Simple Touch to the Complex System Conference...

5th July, 2007, I went to the conference of complex system in the Gold Coast as an "accompany person" :P.

Well, I just joined one of them about Complex system of health care system. Basically, it is of a general hospital.

It is a wonderful ideal of analyzing how the hospital runs on a macroscopic view.
I specially like the ideal of "lack teamwork kills patient", because the relationship between the doctors and the nurses in Australian is very poor. How come a good teamwork can be managed with current relationship between Drs & Ns. Well, I dont think the researchers realized this problem indeed, because they are Drs, they are up class people, while, other hospital stuff are not up....

And I like the mathematic way of explaining the issues, that is very cool-- I think that's why Matthew like maths so much. I like it too, but I can not be mathematician :P

At the conference dinner, which is my first time to dressed up very fancily for a dinner(well, this is not the important part), I saw the ordinary side of those top smart scientists in the world @_@, and even the crazy side. That was fun, although I didnt fully understand all of them. And, I feel so good, when the speaker mentioned about John Nash, a crazy mathematician.